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WHERE DO BROKEN HEARTS GO?










I was so wrong. 

Yes, Bahrain is a cool place to visit. Yes my mum's brother and his wife and their daughter, all of them are literally chill. 
But I hate it. I hate it in here. It's not the food, not the weather(not a big fan but I'm versatile), it's not the beautiful place, and it's definitely not the people. 
I. Just. Hate. It.

I feel so lonely.

There's this small table aunty has on the balcony. At night(or day), when nobody's here, I would stand on the edge and wonder how it would be if I fell from the third floor. 


And he says that God is convinced that I'm gonna kill myself!(what a joke!)

No, I don't plan on killing myself(anytime soon). No, I don't wanna ever come back here alone(unless I have the ability to change my personality or something). And no, I don't wanna suffer.

Does anyone reading this shitty blog actually have any knowledge on me?(*wondering*)

It's either the people from my Instagram story, or the people from my Wattpad page(if you are one of them, gosh I love you), or people stalking me(I know for a fact that you don't exist).

But I do have a few friends whom I like. So maybe they feel pity for me which make them read this. 
Maybe. Maybe not.

Anyway, today is April the 16th. I'll go back before or on May 7th.

You know how this shit works, I wanna go back unless it's that day or something, and when I reach there I'll mentally give myself a slap on my face for not enjoying my time here.

Let's hope, if anyone reading this(as if), if you do feel pity or anything, let me know it, just give me a reason to live.




Because these words I write down are the only proof I have that I'm still alive.

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  1. AnonymousApril 16, 2023 at 11:03 PM

    HEY HI HMM
    we have known each other for about 7 years and you were the first person who approached me like you knew me and I knew
    from the first time that we will be the best of friends and we still are. I LOVE YOU AND I CARE ABOUT YOU A LOTSS I THINK ABOUT YOU A LOT AND YOU ARE THE MOST COOLEST AND KIND FRIEND EVAH.
    Ps: stay alive bcs we have a lots of concerts to go and memories to share and dont forget abt the movie plan💋💩💏

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