sUCHA dull moment

Sometimes I feel like everybody is a sexy baby, and I'm the monster on the hill.

Yes, I sometimes do feel like that.

I got back from Bahrain, I got into Christ University, senior year result came out(yay me), lost some friends, made a few, cried a lot, almost killed myself, found out that I've to move out of town in three weeks, restarted listening to Taylor, got fat, started drinking a new kind of tea, got a new inspiration(Carla).

25.09.2023

Dear diary,

Paparrazzi by Lady Gaga is tearing me apart. I'll be visiting my home on 27th and my friend will be dropping me off at the bus stop(hopefully, he will).
I feel like I'm slowly killing myself. My health. my mind-everything is slowly shutting down. I have no idea why. I'm eating well, I have worked way more than this, the weather is okay(even though I hate it and sometimes I get really effing cold, but it's okay).

Also I have stopped listening to taylor swift. It was fun when it lasted. Back to my shitty music taste(jk, I adore myself).

The reason I came to Christ is really strange(I'll get to that later), But that particular reason(it/she/he/that/those...) will soon be the one shit that got away from me. Hopefully I will get hold of it soon.

One thing I hate about going back home is the fact that I will soon have to come back. I mean trust me, Banglore is a beautiful place. Probably one of the best. But when you have the confidence of a chicken and the energy of a cat, nothing is fun. Hopefully, I will soon start to open my fucking eyes and enjoy without thinking twice.

And hopefully, I will lose some fucking weight.

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