17 Feb 2024, 21 years ago, someone I know was born. Poof. Today, it's me rethinking my thoughts just to make sure that what I feel is right. And do you want to know what I feel? I feel like if this someone is happy now, then I shouldn't ruin it with my presence. At the same time, I keep on running into this someone a lot. I try my best to avoid them most times. But, obviously, I will also want to see them, right? Right. Every day is a new day-me thinking that something will happen that will make me not want to sleep ever. Not because I want to kill myself, but because I could never sleep thinking about the instance as I'll always be smiling. My chances are either getting reduced or is already nil. Not considering the latter, considering what kind of a person I am, I live everyday. Yes, maybe that's why I have low self-esteem. I wish I could talk to someone. Well, not just someone but someone who might know someone . But I am too scared to do that as I am that girl w
My cousin just made a comment. Fuck you, so I have facial hair-up yours! So it's his wedding in what, 2 3 days I guess. I'm currently at my dad's place and this shit is boring af. I'll go back to my place only on 2nd and on 3rd I've to be back at the shitty college. AHHHHHHH I had so many plans for the holidays. Wanted to hang out with Meera, Poorni, Aysha etctec. But none of that crap happened cause of this shitty wedding(I'm not cursing them ok. God bless you guys) But something good did come out of it. I talked to someone after a particular period of time. I hope nobody I'm close with reads this cause this shit is embarrassing af. Also I'm missing new yrs guy. probably the first time after a long time. I feel like crying myself to sleep(honest guys, honest) I want to thank everyone who rooted for me this year+whoever wrote to me thinking that some pages were suicide notes left by me lol(ik it's not funny)(ps MEERAAAAAMWAHS) Also, this might be t