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WHAT IN THE YEAR



 My cousin just made a comment. Fuck you, so I have facial hair-up yours!

So it's his wedding in what, 2 3 days I guess. I'm currently at my dad's place and this shit is boring af. I'll go back to my place only on 2nd and on 3rd I've to be back at the shitty college. AHHHHHHH

I had so many plans for the holidays. Wanted to hang out with Meera, Poorni, Aysha etctec. But none of that crap happened cause of this shitty wedding(I'm not cursing them ok. God bless you guys)

But something good did come out of it. I talked to someone after a particular period of time. I hope nobody I'm close with reads this cause this shit is embarrassing af. 
Also I'm missing new yrs guy. probably the first time after a long time. I feel like crying myself to sleep(honest guys, honest)

I want to thank everyone who rooted for me this year+whoever wrote to me thinking that some pages were suicide notes left by me lol(ik it's not funny)(ps MEERAAAAAMWAHS)

Also, this might be the last blog of the year 2023. Let me wrap it up-it was utters shit. Nothing new happened. 2022 was worse but at least there was drama present. This feels like a mirror maze, but it's just not me who is looking at the mirror.   

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