FREE FROM TONIGHT, free from tonight?

Today is the 30th of September, 2022. Exams just got over and I haven't felt this relaxed in some week. With everything going on-my friend's father passing away, my cousin's death, exams-me almost failing maths(wait for it), travelling to Calicut back and forth, getting ill, skipping school, struggling to complete notes(which I still haven't) and studies, I wouldn't be surprised. God's plan!

On Sunday, that is, in two days, it's gonna be pooja holidays and I can't fucking wait.

So, as I was saying, today was a really good day. It was one of my friend's birthday and I wished him(via text, lol. Too much of a kitten to talk to boys in irl). And well, this guy is going away for college. (ouch)

Also, childhood friends>>>literally any friend else. I write this too often in my diary, but it feels good to type it. Lately, since august or something, I've been trying to lose all the contacts with my school. So luckily, in favor, I was able to take a week or two off from school(for totally inevitable reasons). But it made me happy, so yeah.

I'm gonna stop writing this now, cause my hand fucking hurts and I'm having a hard time in concentrating cause I'm feeling so sleepy. I have school tomorrow. Who in the fucking world would keep school on a saturday? that too, just after finishing their dead ass exams? I swear to god these people-

Also, there's this person(obviously, you know what/who). But I'm not gonna say or confess, not now-just not now.

Let's just say what goes around comes around.

Love always,
A

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