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Day I'm not sure

 02/07/24
 21:22

  Dear diary,

            Do you ever feel like you just don't know what is out there for you? Like either there is nothing                  for you and you're just stuck in the same loop, with just different lightings. Or you can't just see a future for you ahead. There are somethings in the world that can never just be changed.                                Personality is one of them. You can always pretend to be a different person or have different                        opinions but on the inside, you're the same person you've been years ago. People don't      change, their perceptions does.

Okay, I wrote till this in the month of July. Today is September 2nd. Yup, it's been two months since I last wrote this. 
So many happened. I'm confused on where to start.
There was this group of people whom I thought I could depend on somewhat. But my ethics and theirs collided which resulted in me slowing moving out of the way and losing interest.
If you don't know what I'm talking about, then let's keep it that way. It's better.

I turned 19 last month. Yes, it was okay. I got to cut a cake and my friends were able to call me, *virtually*. Honestly it was meh. What I wanted was to go home and figure something out. But I appreciate everyone for trying. Ps, I wanted to count the number of wishes, which I tried. But lost track in between.

Onam is going to be so different huh.

Started to take French class pretty seriously.


Once again the world has proven that anything I do, someone else can do it better.

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