13th April 2025,
16:06
Dear diary,
            Today, like any other day, I cried(I still
  am). It happened for a very random reason, though.
I'm currently in
  Bahrain. Even though my college forced me to come here for an internship, I
  have absolutely no idea what I'm doing here.
I have always been a black sheep from my family. I do not mean the only black sheep-just one of them who is constantly failing even without trying. I do not remember the last time I, along with the rest of my family, was genuinely happy for something that I did.
  I am one of the biggest failures of the century, and I deserve everything that
  comes to me. 
  [who does my sister thinks she is? Just because I am childish, sensitive, and
  a crybaby in front of my family, does she think she can just assume that I
  will put with it even after years? She is the one who fucking blocked me on
  instagram after leaving the country and she is the one who is saying that I
  try not to get in touch with her? I hope she suffers hell for this. She might
  be good at hiding things like this in public but I am not. It fucking tears me
  up everytime when I know the fact that people will always believe her over me,
  for whatever the hell I have done. 
If I were a lazy person who just
  wishes to curl herself in a blanket, I would have accepted everything. But I
  am not that only person and I do not have the self esteem to show that I am a
  brave strong girl who can be the person who does not give an utter shit about
  anything. I am a weak little girl who lets people get her easily because I
  take everything way too personally. I probably should change that but I do not
  want to take another 20 years of my life for that.]
  I hope one day, one day, everything comes out. Every lie I have ever told,
  every single jealous bone in my body, every single feeling I have ever held
  back, I hope it all comes out one day. People then will, hopefully, see me for
  who I am. I don't expect them to welcome me anymore. For my sake, they have
  tried their best.
I hope one day I get the chance to save myself. 
I pray to god every day for the one day to come soon.

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