'We're not afraid to die if we can all be together'

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Today is my last day in Bahrain, at least for a while. I don't know when I'll be back, or if I'll be back.

I just wanted to take a few moments to thank. I thank God for giving me this opportunity to come here-I had a very great time despite of the things I've said to you. As you might already know by now I have some difficulty in controlling my anger when it comes to hatred. But somethings that stopped me from doing unhinged performances are always controlled by the guy above. Thank you for everything.

Second of all I would like thank my parents for the same. Whatever happens between us, you guys are the ones who adjusted the path for me. I wouldn't even be here without you both, and my sister(on whom I always wish the best for. I love you and I'm sorry.

Third of all, the small family I have here who deserves a lot. I want to thank you guys for showing me the beautiful places, treating me well, trying to make me happy as much as you can and for giving me a roof under which I was able to close my eyes to find some peace in this hectic world.

Finally, the rest of all who made this happen. If there's one thing I've learned after coming here, it's that God is always looking after you. If you have food to eat and a roof to sleep under, consider yourself blessed. You can always take things for granted and use it as an excuse to mess things up. But I will always consider myself to be very lucky. I was never lied to. I was only loved by.

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