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Mourning



Dear Diary, 

My class officially ended last month. But I'm doing one more year as a part of delaying unemployment, which I think is an unofficial term for doing honours degree as well. But what the hell! What do I know!
There was this kid in my class who ran down on me to my first year roommate, who was another bitch lol. And the same kid kept hitting on me for the last few months. The strangest part was that it took me some time to figure it out and he somehow managed to freak me out and humiliate me(twice). But towards the very end, for some very weird reason, he became considerate of me. Might have thought, 'I ain't gonna be seeing this bitch ever again! Might as well end on good terms.'

Oh, and he was so very convinced that I was going to kill myself. 

I, like many other people, get tired very easily. Right now, I have reached a point in my life where I get insanely overwhelmed by everything. Sometimes when I eat, I just want to finish my food even if I don't have anything to do after it. And when I go to sleep, I just want it to be the next day. Wish I felt the same when I woke up.

I wake up everyday at 6 in the morning. I have a class till 7:30, which I absolutely despise by the way. Then I have tea and breakfast preceded by another hour of sleep. Then I go for my internship where I stay till 4. We almost have no major work there. 
My French classes are still ongoing. It's something I enjoy attending, like my guitar class which I have not attended in a while. I need to get my shit together.
I'm always grieving. Always something. Dead people, people who left me, people whom I left for some other people who also left me, people who are still with me. 

I'm sick of getting lost. Please come find me.

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